Hello World…
In the world of my higher power, nothing happens by mistake. I’m trying to actively believe that every experience is an opportunity for growth and positive change.
TRYING.
There are so many amazing, talented, passionate, capable people in my life…I’m not sure how I ever let myself feel alone. A little over three weeks ago, I left home for a temporary hiatus from everything with which I couldn’t deal. I left my lack of productivity, my lack of purpose, my loneliness, and my lack of drive. I came to the people who I knew would help me figure things out. I came to the places I felt could help me remember who I am.
Now…I don’t wanna go back. It’s not like I didn’t know this would happen. But the fact that I can almost always predict how I will react to certain situations and scenarios never changes the outcome. I don’t wanna go home. I don’t know what I wanna do instead, I just know that I’m afraid of the place I currently call home. I’m almost positive it’s a fear driven by laziness….making fear a secondary and unnecessary emotion.
But it’s fear nonetheless. So I’ve decided that from this fear, there is most definitely great potential for opportunity. My life at home, as it is right now, is the most difficult environment I believe I can place myself in while trying to change for the positive in the ways I want for myself right now.
Today, I realized that if I can become who I want to be and C.R.E.A.T.E. the life I want for myself AT HOME…in an environment i think defines unhealthy…I can live a rewarding and fulfilling life anywhere I choose to go from there…
I’ve spent years now challenging my friends, challenging the minds of others, challenging people to make positive change in the world. Now, I’m challenging myself to overcome what I am too lazy to deal with. I’ll be home in 4 days and from there, the journey begins.
Stay Tuned.
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